STEP ON IT

I just want to step on it and go further away from you

No more looking back through the rear mirror for your reflection

You were the perfect definition of “right place at the wrong time”

Caressed my heart through the nights of risking my mind

You pressed the buttons like nobody could

Now I can never see myself like however you would.

 

Watch me drive pass my emotions

Waving my hands as I swallow this love potion

Well, he’s waiting for me at the other side and this journey’s been a smooth ride

But I really hope i don’t hide before I could meet him at the other side.

 

Burnt all the sheets, ashes of words flying through the skies

We were electric and you know it, babe don’t ever forget it

The world was ours as you pulled me closer

Whispered in my ears for what the world has to offer

I could drink your soul every day, never hungover

Hard to admit you’re my one and only almost lover,

“You’re my one and only almost lover…”

 

Watch me drive pass my emotions

Waving to you as I swallow this love potion

He’s waiting for me at the other side and this journey’s been a smooth ride

But I really hope i don’t hide before I could meet him at the other side.

 

“Love’s a commitment and I ain’t ready for that.”

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Six Hours

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“Six hours before we say goodbye again,

You’re still asleep next to me, as always,

I can fall asleep anytime I want while you stare into the darkest nights,

Your warm smooth skin is what I crave,

When I toss and turn on the bed and you’re not around

As I close my eyes, I pretend that you’re caressing down my thighs.

 

I can’t help what you did to me,

Opened my eyes wide so I can see,

It scares me to death knowing that I’d leave you behind with the memories.

 

We’ll get there eventually,

They do not know what we feel to rethink this through carefully,

You’ve taken half of my heart,

And in time they will finally understand and see what this love was made to me,

What this love means to me.

— Suzie Mz x

 

What is love?

After so many failed relationships and crushes, I honestly do not know what love really is.

I’ve been in love a couple of times before but they always ended up with me crying my days and nights out, losing so much of weight because I was too sad and the worst is that I always end up feeling more lonely than before. 

I recently got into a relationship with a younger boy/man and I love every second of it. Although he is in Amsterdam and I’m in Kuala Lumpur – the distance doesn’t feel as bad as my previous relationship.

People in my life always leave. Or they’d hurt me brutally. Emotionally, physically and sexually. They exhausted me.

So my concern is – when will this crumble and fall? Because good things never happen to me.